Testing

Next week we are having kyu tests at the dojo, and it's incredible to see how enthusiastic all the students are. It's difficult to convey how impressed I am as I sit here writing this blog and I hear them preparing in the next room. As this dojo slowly grows I can't help worrying about how many students I have, how I will pay the bills, and how will I pass on this great thing that I have learned. Sometimes it brings me down, I feel sorry for myself with worry, and I think that I'm not doing a very good job. But as I sit here and listen to them train, I hear their happy voices, I hear them trying to understand these techniques and it feels as if something must be right. I still worry about the bills, I still worry about how to grow the dojo, but it's these moments where I can't help feeling like we are on the right track. Time will certainly tell, but for right now I'm pretty happy in my ignorance of the future.